shots for IVF2 have started

Hi friends,
 Shots for IVF 2 have officially started. Tonight at 6 pm I did my Lupron. I have to do it between 6 and 8pm and so I made sure to set an alarm on my phone and got it done. It was quick and easy. Today I worked in my company office for a bit and got a great invite from one of my co-workers inviting me over to her super bowl party. I am excited to hang out with co-workers and our owner and his wife.
I also got to catch up with my aunt today and that was nice. My aunt is making a family cook book and wanted to get some of my favorite recipes. I can't wiat for my cook book.
It's been a quiet week around here. Hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed night.
I am also sending huge hugs to one of my cycle buddies from December Andy as she lost her beautiful baby yesterday.

update/vent

Hi Friends~

 This week has been 3 weeks since we lost our beautiful babies. I still struggle some with it but am doing better. On Thursday I start Lupron. I am still chugging away on BC pills. Only one more week left of them Thank God.

Here's my big vent:
I probably don't have the rest relationship with my in laws just because of my horrible peice of crap brother in law. My brother in law is 24 years old and doesn't work and has 5 kids and my in laws pay for everything for him. When ever he has called from jail my in laws always go and bail his ass out. He supposedly got a job last week and so we took him the to airport and I dropped my hub's and his dad off at Bass Pro and my freaking mother in law and I went to Target. On the way over to Target she askes so how far along are you? I said Momma D that I had a miscarriage and she was like okay. She couldn't even say sorry or your in my prayers. Then to top everything off. My pain in the butt brother in law was taking pictures and posting them to facebook while flying in the air, which is a big no no. So, my husband  goes to show my father in law and he says that is okay. I was like "no" it is not okay. I said my dad was an air weapon's controller in the AF.

As much as I love my husband and he is my rock I can't stand to be around his family. It's just very frusturating that they can be jerk's to me.

Hope everyone is having a fabulous night

Liebster Award

Hi friends,
 I have been nominated for a Liebster award, woohoo! A fellow blogger nomiated me for this award. Mely thanks for the amazing nomination. It really made my day.

This award is given to new or up-and coming-bloggers who have less than 200 followers. The award is then passed along to other bloggers in the same category to help spread the word and support one another. What a fun way to get to know other bloggers!

If you receive a nomination, there are a few rules to follow:
1) Each blogger nominated must post 11 things about themselves.
2) Then answer the 11 questions the tagger has asked.
3) Blogger must then create 11 questions of their own to ask the bloggers they decide to nominate.
4) They must choose 11 bloggers with less than 200 followers to nominate and link them on their blog post.
5) Bloggers must be notified of their award!
6) No tag backs!

Here are the 11 things about me:
1.) I met my babe's on a blind date
2.) My family growing up was military
3.) I have 11 amazing neices and nephews
4.) I use to figure skate and loved being on the ice
5.) I still have friends from high school that I am close with to this day
6.) I have a beautiful amazing older sister Jennifer
7.) I love the St. Louis Cardinals
8.) I love my job and am blessed with amazing bosses
9.) I was born in Germany
10.)  I sing with our praise band at church when I am in town
11.) I love being in the water during the summer or on our boat


Here are the 11 questions for my nominees:

1. Are you a dog or a cat person? I am a dog person, and I have 4 doggies that I love

2. What is your New Year's resolution? Is to eat healthy and work out more

3. What are 3 items you can't live without? my husband, God, and my family

4. If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go? probably Germany

5. What is a pet peeve of yours? Doctor's offices that don't return phone calls

6. What Disney character can you most relate to? Minnie Mouse

7. If you had to do karaoke, what song would you sing? I hope you Dance by Leeanne Womack

8. What is one of your guilty pleasures? I would have to say my guilty pleasure would be drinking coffee during IVF

9. iPhone, Android, or Windows phone? Android

10. What was your favorite Halloween costume? being a pumpkin since my mom made the costume

11. What is your earliest childhood memory? Moving to Canada.

Here are my 11 questions for my nominees:
1.) Favorite color?
2.) Favorite Sports team?
3.) Are you closer to your mom and dad and why?
4.) Favorite breakfast food?
5.) Favorite TV show?
6.) Coffee or hot chocolate?
7.)Favorite memory as a young adult?
8.) Favorite place to live?
9.) Favorite thing to do on weekends?
10.) Favorite place to shop?
11.) Favorite Charity to donate to?

Here are my 11 bloggers:
1.) Lisabeth M. ~Maybebabylove.blogspot.com
2.) Laurakat81 ~growbabysmithgrow.blogspot.com
3.) sunflowers4ac~sunflowers4ac.blogspot.com
4.)middlemusingsinfertility.blogspot.com
5.) Alicia~http:mycrazyroadcalledlife.blogspot.com/
6.) Becky~theblissfuljourney.blogspot.com
7.) Jackie~happilyeverinfertility.blogspot.com
8.) Lisa~theroadtobabyoz.blogspot.com
9.) Jenn~jshaink0620.blogspot.com
10.) Heather~ttcrazy.blogspot.com
11.) Sueann~happyfacessadface.blogspot.com

 

IVF #2

Hi Friends,
 This week has been great. Wednesday I got to spend the day with my hubby. Thursday I got to spend the day with my best friend  Donna and it was some much needed time and then I got to talk on the phone to my amazing and beautiful cycle buddy Rachel. I love you Rach and then today my meds for IVF #2 came in. Also my IVF schedule came in and here are some prominent dates.

January 31st~ I start Lupron
February 3rd~ last BC pill
February 9th~I start Bravelle and Menopur along with staying on Lupron
The week of February 17-23 is my ER week.

Of course before I start stims I need to make sure that my system is supressed. I can't believe that today we are a month away from Retrival.

Here is a pic of my overwhelming meds:

Hope that everyone has a fabulous night :)

IVF 2 is set to begin

Hi friends,
  As many of you know it has been close to 2 weeks since we lost our beautiful angels. Life has been crazy busy with going back to work and making some changes for the better. This weekend while I was traveling out of town for work I had a very light period and major cramps. What this means in the IF world is that today I start my bc pills and meds should be here on Friday. I had my baseline appt with our amazing RE today. I seriously love our doctor and for everything he does for us. My ovaries are back to their normal size and they are cyst free. I also had blood work done and my hcg came back at 1.7 which means that if I were to test today that it would be negative and then my estrogen came back at 44. If my estrogen was at 100 then my cycle would get pushed back.
For this cycle we are doing estorgen priming. I will be doing 300 of Menopur and 75 of Bravelle. It looks as if right now that my ER will be the week of my 30th birthday.. I am super exicted to get this next cycle started.
I am also grateful to work for an amazing company that allows me to take off as much time as needed for this cycle and to make sure that I am doing good. I am blessed.

Tomarrow starts a new healthy me with more healthy foods and lots more water. Hope everyone has a great night and be safe!

Friends and some what good news

Going thru Infertility is hard enough it makes it even harder when you have negative people in your life. I have slowly been deleting people from facebook that I am not close to. Here is my vent: so a few weeks ago a former friend sent me a text asking about the whole roller coaster that we are on and then she goes on telling me I am crazy for doing it. I said well if you were in our shoes and position then I would offer you and your husband support and be a good listener. I immediately deleted this chick off facebook. So Sunday she sends me a facebook message and asked why I deleted her. I said I really don't have the time or energy to play mind games. She was like what does that mean I said well people need to grow up and not judge other people by the situation that their in. This biotch didn't know about the miscarriage.

The thing that triggered all this is a lady I know also no longer friends with is 60 years old and tell the chick up above what we are going thru.

I think the thing that I have learned about this roller coaster is you never know who your true friends are. I am truely blessed to have some amazing friends and they are the friends that support and love us when we have hard time and are their to cheer us on the good days and when things go right. When I have my bad days I know that they won't judge or talk about us behind our backs.

Today my best friend surprised me with an amazing lunch invitiation. My best friend Donna know's that I have been struggling both emotionally and phyically. I am blessed to have her in my life.

On the medical side of things: We got my last HCG results today and it was 18.1 so that means that it is going down and that my period should be starting next week some time. My nurse Patsy said that she is crossing her fingers for this cycle. I am blessed to have amazing nurses and one amazing doctor. While I don't think to highly of one of the doctor's in the clinic it's because of the bleeding issue I was having.

It's been 3 days since our miscarriage

This weekend has been horrible emotional weekend with so many emotions from guilt like we didn't do enough to protect our babies, to angry at God why did he take my babies away. When I say babies we transfered two embryo's and so we are calling them our twins. Even though we never got to meet this beautiful babies they stole a peice of our hearts and we will be forever grateful for the 5 weeks and 3 days we got to spend with them. They changed my husbands life and my life forever. While we are still emotional, we happened to have our WTF appt in LR about 3 hours ago and we got a lot of answers to our questions. My appt was only scheduled to be a 15 minute appt but it ended up being a 30 minute appt. He wanted my HCG drawn and to make sure it is going down and tomarrow I should here the results of it. Also in the next few days I will start taking birth control for round #2. Our plan as of right now is to give my body time to recover and mentally time to grieve. I go back for another meeting with our doctor in a month.

This weekend while my babe and I were grieveing we decided to name the babies. While we don't know the sexes they will always be a peice of me. Our beautiful baby girl her name is Michelle which is my middle name and our handsome baby boy is Edward which is DH's middle name.

Tonight as I remember and reflect on my babies, please also remember two of my cycling buddies who have also had miscarriage's. You ladies are amazing and please know I continue to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers and know I am here if either of you need to chat. I am blessed to call you friends. I love you Jschwind and Twistsandturnstoo2.

FU IF

Honestly if you refer to the title today you might know what this may mean. With very heavy hearts and very emotional our babies became angels today. Nothing about IF is easy and especially not today. We are sad that our angels won't ever get to see their first birthday, their first Christmas, wedding, graduation and babies of their own. Yet, we know that they know that mommy and daddy loved them very much and they took a peice of our hearts.

My beta came in at 48 today........


Our WTF is Monday, please pray for my babe and I that the doctor tries to explain to us what went wrong and how we can hopefully prevent our hearts from being broken next time.